What am I doing with my life?

Today I met up with my school Physics & Cross Country teacher. And of course he wanted to know what I was doing these days. So I thought it was about time I got back on the blog.

It’s a question I ask myself. It’s a question I get asked everyday. And no, you aren’t going to get the answer you want.

I’m not conforming to the norm.
Is it brave? I don’t think so.
Is it pioneering? Not particularly.
Is it what I really really want to do right now? Yes.

Nearly 10 months ago I quit my life in the big city. I’m no longer pursuing a ‘career’ in the traditional sense. However it doesn’t stop recruiters contacting me on a daily basis…..Did you actually read my LinkedIn profile?

I’m a full time athlete. Trying to be the best I can be.

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When I first packed up and left for Thailand I said this:

“Ok so I don’t actually know what that ‘dream’ is fully but each day it feels like I am getting closer and clearer picture is forming. 3 things are clear: I love triathlon, I love travelling and I love warm weather. So for now I’m going to keep chasing those 3 things.

‘What am I even doing with my life?’ Thoughts like that go through my head every day. And yes I have had some sleepless nights. But recently less so as I settle into my new routine with new friends from around the world.”

Has anything changed from that? Not really. But now I know more than ever that this is what I love doing more than anything else in the world.

There was one particular moment when I knew I had done the right thing. It wasn’t on a particularly picturesque ride, beautiful open water swim nor a tough interval run. It was in the back of a pick-up truck in the rain. A group of us had just spent the day in the south of Phuket Island and on the way back myself, Giulia & Pierre were singing at the top of our voices in the rain whilst stuck in crazy traffic. It was at that point I knew, I couldn’t go back to ‘normal’. Maybe it was the two beers we had at the beach, but I honestly have never felt so content in my life than that moment. And I couldn’t think of anything worse than going back to sitting behind a desk.

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So for now I’m going to keep pursuing this new career of being a full time athlete, whilst trying to explore as much of the world as possible. So far I have met more new people and had more amazing experiences travelling through Thailand, New Zealand & Australia than I could ever of imagined. Why stop now?

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I’ve returned to Europe for ‘summer’. Having raced early in the year I have taken the opportunity to train more, save money and race in Autumn instead of the traditional European summer racing. Training at home as brought new challenges. Establishing a solid European base continues to be an issue. I want to train in the countryside and see my family but also miss the ease of training in London with friends. Fortunately I have found Do3 who I swim with 3 or 4 times a week. Otherwise swim training would be nigh on impossible in Warwickshire. I have split my time between Warwickshire and various other UK trips so I don’t get cabin fever! It has been hard adjusting to many hours of solo bike training, something to find solutions for next summer!

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This Autumn I will race a few more Ironman 70.3’s in the hope of qualifying for the 2020 World Championships in New Zealand. And then in November, strangely on exactly the same date as last year I will return to Phuket. Flights are booked and I honestly can’t wait to get back training with Z-coaching and coach Jürgen. I’m also looking forward to welcoming many friends to Phuket, so when are you coming to visit?

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Future race plans are IM 70.3 Dubai and Challenge Roth (relay) with Team Hatch who continue to be invaluable support as I strive to be the best triathlete I can be. Incidentally next year is a big year for Team Hatch, with many new members and several long course races to hopefully raise as much money for Great Ormond Street as possible #foremma

See you on the race course soon 🙂

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